|Who are you and what have you done with our Shepherd?|
It's 3:00 in the morning and I'm going to bed. Phew, it's been a long day. Send your prayers
UPDATE: SATURDAY MARCH 12 - I spent the afternoon with The Shepherd in his ICU room - they had him on what I would call and "industrial strength" c-pap machine for the first two hours - he basically slept, but I could tell that he hated it. BUT it was helping his oxygen levels. We had a visit from our new minister and Rev. Amy cheered him up lots (Thank you! :-) ) A very wonderful friend took me out to dinner, and, I called the hospital when I got home and they said that he was doing pretty well. He will be hungry for breakfast because they wouldn't let him have any dinner - being afraid that the c-pap would make him nauseous - didn't want him throwing up in it! (Ick) Friends and neighbors are helping with the critters, but I figure it's my turn to "step up to the plate" as he has taken care of the place when I've had various and sundry ailments over the years. I'm getting my exercise, as the closest parking (handicapped - and I have my placard) is about a block from the main entrance of the hospital!!
UPDATE: SUNDAY MORNING MARCH 13 - I just talked to his nurse and he did not have a very good night. He was on the c-pap all night and they plan on putting him back on it today - they will start IV feeding because they cannot let him have anything to eat or drink. He is extremely fragile right now. I'm starting to lose my brave face. Please everybody hold him in your thoughts and prayers. We've got to get him through this!
Our friend Nancy G is coming over this morning to help me get caught up on a few things. It will be good to have another person in the house with me - the cats and I are getting lonely.
UPDATE: SUNDAY NIGHT MARCH 13, 10:45 pm What a crazy day - I was able to get a good rest last night. Our friend Nancy came over this morning and helped me do some cleaning (that needed two people) and put a new cover on our couch. Then we went off to the laundromat to do a passel of laundry. Thank heavens for friends.
Laundry dried and folded, she headed home and at about 3:00, I headed to the hospital. He looked better this afternoon - his oxygen saturation level was up (his skin is returning to pink instead of grey) and he was much more alert today than before. Because of all the breathing apparatus they still were withholding food and were "considering" a feeding tube, which I really pushed for. They got that in tonight - what a harrowing experience that is (!!) and were set up to start at about 7:00. I'm really hoping that once he starts getting some nourishment he will begin to recover. We're a long ways form being out of the woods, I fear.
We had another very bad windstorm here tonight - with gusts up to 60 miles an hour - it blew over a couple of his trees that are in boxes. I'll have to have the neighbor guys come help put them back up. They are blocking my way to the barn, but I can get around them. The sheep were all pissed off at me because they were just a little bit late in getting fed and I think that the wind might have been freaking them out some. Such is life on the farm.
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers, and your comments of love and support.
UPDATE MONDAY MARCH 14 7:00 pm I have about 3 minutes and need to be on my way out the door for church choir rehearsal. I HAVE GOOD NEWS for you - they moved him out of ICU this morning! They are still having problems getting his oxygen levels stabilized, but we'll take what we can. The sheep, cats and I are doing fine - the cats especially miss The Shepherd. Well, and the sheep still think I'm the boogie man, but they have started to come running when they hear me hobble out to the barn :-) More later.
|Down the street from my office|
|Beside our front gate|
The sheep girls now come running to the barn when I call them from the path. And they are almost used to me, enough that they run in, grab a mouth full of hay, stand there, trying to decide if they should dart back outside or grab another mouth full of hay. Donna and Vanessa definitely have baby bumps but they are a ways away from lambing - maybe 3 or 4 weeks I think.
I am so grateful that I have my new android phone that I got for myself for my birthday. It has really been a life saver/godsend to be able to get messages out and to be able to use my email away from home during this time. And since I have it in my pocket all the time, it's handy to be able to take some fun pictures like these last three.
I've only lost "my brave face" once in front of The Shepherd. My sister said that was only to be expected, but I know that it won't help him to get better if he thinks I'm "freaking out". So, we're doing the best we can. TTYL
UPDATE WEDNESDAY, MARCH 16, 2016 My update for today is "The more things change, the more things stay the same" We are pretty discouraged today - they are still having a whole lot of trouble getting his oxygen regulated - they are giving him 15 liters (an hour?, not sure) but in order for him to come home, he has to move down to needing only 5 liters and that seems a ways away. He is annoyed with the food service - he is on a soft food diet - they are worried about him choking, so all the food needs to be soft and maybe have a sauce on it - but he's not big for sauces and gravy, so the dietitian said she would order his food to come "with sauce on the side" - well tonight he got his mashed potatoes and gravy with gravy, AND a cup of gravy on the side. He actually laughed about that.
Between going out to the barn to feed sheep, and walking from the parking lot to the hospital and back (a block even though I'm in the handicapped lot) I'm really getting my exercise. I did decide to stash my walker in the trunk and use that to go from car to his room - much easier on my back than trying to walk all that distance with my cane and people are so sweet - they really scurry around to help me - opening doors or what ever. Never underestimate the kindness of strangers.
Thanks again for all your offers of help, your prayers and good thoughts. Visualize his lungs healthy and strong, if you would. I think that's what it is going to take. I am grateful it is "only pneumonia" though - a friend's mom is down the hall with a blocked bowel - Colon cancer? Maybe...And another friend whose FIL is in with "c.diff" - google it - it's nasty stuff - I think one would be a step up if you had e.coli and like that, it shuts down your kidneys. I guess I'll take the pneumonia over those other two.
UPDATE, THURSDAY, MARCH 17 - Hello - nothing really new to report today. He is getting stir crazy and very lonely - even though I have been going up twice a day now. Poor guy. They did turn his oxygen down to 13 liters per hour but he has to be down to 5 before they will let him come home.
Meanwhile life goes on - I have been going up to see him in the mornings and getting to work at about 12:30 - The last couple of days I have gone after work too - if I leave by 7:00 there is still enough ambient light for me to see to feed the sheep. I just ordered a better flashlight and some solar pathway lights from Amazon.com - he's not real crazy about outside lights, but hey, I'm not real crazy about wandering around in the dark either. I have the next three days off, so maybe I can spend a little more time with him.
Happy St. Patrick's Day - we had food left over from a luncheon at work - they had corned beef and cabbage - it was delicious! I had some for my lunch and there was enough left over for my dinner! Yum!
Thanks again for all your notes of encouragement. I need to go fold some laundry before I head to bed.
UPDATE, FRIDAY MARCH 18 - What's that old camp song - "Same song, second verse, a whole lot louder and a whole lot worse" ?? Not a whole lot of change today - although he did go for a couple of walks around the ward and they are trying to wean him down on the oxygen - he was down to 11 (liters per minute) when I left and the Respiratory Therapist said she might have them turn it down to 10 for the night and see if his numbers stayed up. Remember they said he had to be down to 5 before they would let him leave the hospital. And, he actually ate all of his dinner tonight - chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy (with gravy on the side - ha ha) beets, applesauce and ice cream. I stayed until almost 9:00 - didn't want to have them lock the front door and have to go out through the ER on the other side of the hospital. He had some visitors today that cheered him a lot.
My friend Misty came and did some cleaning for me - back porch and the little bathroom that The Shepherd uses. It is nice to have her do the cleaning, but stressful for me because she throws stuff away without asking the significance of the item. (like my $15 bottle of lavender oil that I put in the water when I wash my yarn - had to snag that out of the garbage sack!) Our Gardening Angels - friends from church, are going to come spiff up the yard a bit in the morning, so he won't be stressed when he gets home and feel like he has to get out and clean up all the stuff that blew out of the trees when we had our recent wind storms. We'll be OK as long as they don't dig up the asparagus...